Ellington

I'm still fat. I've gotten less sleep now than I did a few weeks ago when I decided I'd get more sleep. My life is slightly more off balance. And I haven't done a lick of yoga. My road to wellness is the road less travelled, because it's run over with debris, rocks and overgrown foliage.

To be fair to myself, it's not like the 75 pounds I imagine I need to lose were going to fall off in two weeks. If that happened, there would be other problems, and I don't have time for other problems in my life right now.

A couple people have said I look I'm losing weight. One of my aunts, in fact, said the other weekend, "You're finally starting to lose a little weight." She didn't know about the road to wellness, but she certainly knows how to speak her mind. My only concern about the weight I may or may not be losing (I haven't been on a scale either, by the way) is if weight has escaped me, it's because: I forgot to eat or didn't have money to buy food because I sacrificed for a pair of shoes. (Hey there, Betsey Johnson!)

Then there was the day someone dropped off a box of Scurlock's confections to me. I tried to ignore the box and the treats inside. But those sugary things kept whispering my name, like my ex-boyfriend used to. I gave in to the pastries like I often did to my ex. To counter that over-indulgence, however, I didn't eat anything else for the rest of the day. Yes, I know, that's not healthy.

Where sleep is concerned: If I'm not running here or there, I'm stopping to get gas so I can run here or there; or I'm getting prepared by typing, reading or writing something before I run here or there where I will have to do something that will inevitably cause me to lose think sleeping about what I could have done better or differently when I get home.
I said all of this to say: I need balance. More balance would help in all of these areas. So I've re-committed myself to a road to wellness. If and when I acquire balance, I imagine that other things will come easier to me. At least I hope that's true. I will start my journey toward balance by turning off my computer now and reading the first chapter of the book I've been carrying around in my bag for a month.

natalie.

Previous Comments

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158505

Comment

Balance is the key, Natalie. I wish I had sense enough to seek balance before I worried and pulled all of my hair out. When I need balance now I often go get all 4 grandkids at the same time, who will take up all my time and life telling me what they want to do and receive from me. I even take them on trips around the country. When I die I expect them to say a great man lay in that grave and cry like there is no tomorrow at my loss before all my friends and love ones. Then I expect them to emulate me with their own grandkids.

Author

Walt

Date

2010-07-02T16:37:15-06:00

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158521

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Gosh, Walt. A sister like me ain't got no (yes, ain't got no) grandkids. What am I supposed to do? Maybe I can borrow yours?

Author

nacollier

Date

2010-07-05T18:40:21-06:00